One thing that sucks…

When I was really little my mom passed away. I’m ok with the fact now but doesn’t make me miss her a lot. Now as an adult trying to do normal things like make up is hard af. My mom wasn’t there when I was a preteen and a teen… My grandma tried her best but always said my natural beauty is best. So I didn’t get taught how to put make up on. How to not look like a clown… It’s hard sometimes cause I’m so unsure… And afraid no one will tell me hey your make up isn’t good. I’ve been experimenting recently… I’m trying to stay positive but it sucks not having that guidance or critics from her. #justsomethoughts #missmymom

I just want to vent…

It’s been a shitty day. I feel like I’m not a priority at all. I feel I come last in his plans. He doesn’t drive me to work like he used to, he doesn’t care as much as he used to it seems. I’ve had a very shitty stressful day and he doesn’t give a fuck. I’m hungry and haven’t eaten since like 10 this morning… Yet why are we sitting at his house while he works on the stupid fucking truck… Why do I get drug everywhere but don’t get thought of?? I’m tired and hungry. I haven’t been home since I went to work this morning. Work was a shit show… I got told yeah yeah we’ll get food.. that was hours ago… Shouldn’t I be a priority? Shouldn’t I come first? He comes first for me…. I’m having old flash backs and feelings I don’t want to have of my ex…. Is this just another fucked up relationship I’ve gotten into? I don’t ask for much… I don’t spend money like I used to, yet we’re broke. I work as hard as I can and I’m still struggling… He doesn’t seem to care or notice I’m hurting. He’s says he’s gonna do something for me but doesn’t… I just want to feel wanted and important to him. I mean for fucks sake I’m fucking pregnant shouldn’t that he you’re number one priority? I just want to go home and try to sleep

just-shower-thoughts:

When you’re sick, the advice you’re told is to do drugs and stay out of school